11.30.2007

Haiku Road Trip

Off to the Mountains
Six Crackers, two CrackerDogs
Four hour car ride

A big adventure
To celebrate the BigGuy
One Year Old Sunday!

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It's Haiku Friday, once again! Last Day of NaBloPoMo, I did it! Woohoo!!

It's a big Cracker party this weekend to celebrate the BigGuy's (Little Man's best friend and NICU roommate) first birthday. The BigGuy is truly a miracle man and we are so happy that he is now a happy and healthy One Year Old! (Remember to support the March of Dimes since this is the last day of their Prematurity Awareness Month!)

It's our first long road trip as parents. Warrior and I are both excited and a little nervous. It's also our first time going on a trip with another couple, staying in the same house. Yowsa! Hopefully we'll still be friends by the time we leave on Monday! HA!

I'm gonna try to catch up on all of your blogs very soon ~ if you couldn't tell my comments and visits have been MIA lately, but VDog still loves ya! And I'm really itchin' to get back into the swing of things. Mama's just been crazy busy lately!

Have a great weekend, and all my NaBloPoMo friends, please, please, PLEASE take a break (so we can all catch up!), and I'll catch ya on the flipside!

11.29.2007

Little Man Takes the Cake


How can you compete with this face?

Apparently, they're getting Wordless everyday. Huh. Good for NaBloPoMo! Woot!

11.28.2007

Little Man's Story, Part One

In the beginning, there was the pregnancy...and it was a rough pregnancy, marked by all-day-sickness through the fifteenth week. And more occasional vomiting after that.

There was implantation bleeding on day forty-nine, which was mistaken for a period. Then there was a scare in the eighth week, which turned out to be nothing of consequence.

In the eleventh week, there was a banner day of barfing -- seven sessions in all. But I never went twenty-four hours without being able to hold something down, so there was no hospitalization for that at least.

By the end of the first trimester I had lost sixteen pounds. I stopped getting bigger at thirty weeks, when I was admitted to the hospital for PROM, premature rupture of the membranes (water broke), so I never ended up actually net gaining any weight.

I worked part-time as a Nanny for two two-year-old girls for most of the pregnancy. One of the highlights was when I was retching into the sink (dry heaving) and one of the little girls ran up to me (the one who liked to follow rules) with the TV remote, saying, "here Victoria!" and then running off, not noticing that anything was amiss.

I was easily tired throughout the pregnancy -- Little Man was quite the dude already, sapping me of my energy and clear skin -- so I napped at least once a day. I kept waiting for that moment when I would feel FABULOUS!! like everyone/thing said I would during that "magical" second trimester. "Your energy will return and you'll feel like shopping for the layette at the end of your day." Um, yeah...not so much for me.

I had one fleeting moment on one day when I thought, "this is it! This is the energy returning! Sweet! This is gonna be great!" And then an hour later, it was gone. I never got that other, um, "urge" they talk about either. Oh well.

On the inside, Little Man was known as Little Bunny or #5. Shortly after I hit week sixteen, he made his presence felt. I was surprised at first because I had read that with your initial pregnancy it is more likely that you will feel the baby's movement at week twenty or later. Not Little Man. He was ready to start rockin' and rollin' in there.

From flutters to kicks, I loved every minute of his movements. It helped that Little Man was large for his gestational age (LGA) from at least the nineteenth week, when we had our ultrasound to find out that our Little Bunny was going to be our Little Man. I'm guessing a bigger baby means feeling the motions sooner.

According to babycenter, at nineteen weeks your baby should be about eight and a half ounces. At nineteen weeks, Little Man was already thirteen ounces!! What a big boy! And he looked exactly the same then in a profile shot as he does now. We envisioned our little cutie before he was even born.

Being the little cabotin (French word for ham or monkey, comedian) that he is, he even let the technician get the money shot -- we were having *GASP* a boy! (We both did audibly gasp when she told us. It was a pretty funny moment. We still couldn't tell anything until they printed out the picture for us.)

Before being hospitalized, the worst part of my pregnancy was when we went back east for Thanksgiving at GranCracker's house. We flew JetBlue. Our flight out was delayed. Six+ hours. In the airport. Six+ months pregnant. Fun stuff.

After a very long and uncomfortable flight, we arrived at GranCracker's at 2am Thanksgiving morning, when we had left our house around 6am the day before. Because we are TOTAL Crackers, we scheduled our flight home for the Monday after Thanksgiving, AT SIX A-FREAKIN'-M.

Since GranCracker's is roughly a two hour drive from the airport, we elected to stay in a hotel across from the airport on Sunday night. Guess how little sleep you get when you can't control the heat that's blasting into your room because it's freezing outside, there are a bazillion planes flying overhead BECAUSE YOU'RE ACROSS FROM THE AIRPORT, and you are six months pregnant? Yeah, NOT VERY MUCH.

Guess how many times you barf ON THE PLANE (WHICH YOU'VE NEVER DONE BEFORE) under these conditions? Twice. At least I got to experience the miracle that is the air-sick bag. HA!

I felt like crap for a week after that trip. When I told my OB about this, she said, "oh, that's when I tell most of my patients TO travel." I don't recommend it, sister. But maybe I'm just a big wussy. A big, barfing-prone wussy.

This takes us up to right before my Birthday and hospitalization (which occurred the next day), so stay tuned for Part Two!

11.27.2007

New Jams, New Toys



Doesn't the Little Man look SO big in the first photo? He has moved up to size 12M in the footie pajamas, which is just unbelievable to me, considering he is supposed to be the size of a nine month old (his corrected age).

Today at lunch someone even called him a toddler!

My baby is growing up, WAHHH!!!!
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11.26.2007

It's Good To Have Bloggy Friends

Dawn so graciously gave me this wonderful award for being a good bloggy friend to her. She makes it easy! This one really means a lot to me, since she only gave it to two people. I feel *special* now. Thanks, Dawn!

I don't think I can limit my award giving to just two, but I will try to limit myself to just a few of the many great bloggy friends I have made in just a few short months. My apologies to those of you who don't see your name here -- chances are if you are reading my blog, I am thinking of you, too.

Secret Agent Mama -- we met on Cre8Buzz and she has stood by me through and through -- even when I don't comment on her blog for days at a time (sorry!!) 'cause she's cool like that.

Cathy @ Mine -- we have seen each other through our brutal elimination diets and watched each other's boys get bigger. Cathy also keeps me going with her frequent commenting.

Jennifer @ Playgroups Are No Place for Children -- Jennifer has been a great blog friend and supporter of mine, and I truly appreciate her presence here on my blog and in the blogosphere in general. She's like the Community Liaison of Mommy Bloggers.

Cate @ Monkeys & Marbles -- Cate also has a preemie and is always willing to chat when I bother her on google talk. She makes me yearn to visit Canada.

And finally, B-to-the-E-dizzle @ The Egel Nest -- holdin' it down for the Dad's ain't easy, and he's managed to work us Moms into his good graces. He is an awesome commenter and blog friend, and often says what I dare not.

Of course, I would like to send this right back at ya, Dawn.

I <3 all of you totally. Wish we lived closer IRL!!

Cheers, everyone!

11.25.2007

The Winnah!



My bird!! My glorious, first bird! Whoopee! (The top did look a bit better -- more even -- but I flipped it over while it rested so that the juices would run/rest all over the breast, hoping to make it juicy.)

11.24.2007

Who's Looking Out For Me?

Why is it so easy to take care of the baby [others], but it is near impossible to take care of me?

Now I know that taking care of a baby isn't easy, but we know what to do (generally) and we do it. Because we have to. Because that is what is right.

But what about me? What about you? Is it acceptable not to shower everyday simply because you don't have the time (you say), and because you are putting another's needs in front of your own? I wasn't kidding about being so excited to have washed my hair. In fact, I am in dire need of a hair washing right now.

It is much easier for me to take care of Little Man's needs than it is to take care of my own. I largely ignore my own needs on a day-to-day basis because I am so tired, and so dedicated to taking care of Little Man, Sasha, the house, and Warrior (yes, the husband comes last during the day, but first at night after the baby is in bed).

The truth is that I have never been very good at taking care of myself. I felt a large sense of responsibility to my family and others from a very young age. It was only in the last few years that I was learning to be more "selfish," (also known as staying out of other people's business, minding my OWN business, actually focusing on myself, not caring about other people's problems more than my own, etc.) but I never got very good at it.

Taking care of other people, I know. Taking care of myself? Not so much.

I've struggled with making myself worth taking care of, and in the manner that I would hope to, for all of my adult life.

I've struggled with not feeling good enough in most everything I do.

I've struggled with depression, and mostly won.

Now, with the arrival of my Little Man, I need to make myself important, but I also have to put his needs first. As a mom, I feel like I am now going to be number two, at best.

I'm tired of feeling like I am just getting by. Part of me feels like I am just being lazy when I think about the things that I COULD have done to take care of myself, but didn't do. Part of me feels like, eh, they don't matter. Part of me knows I am doing great, and I am just being hard on myself.

I am doing the best I can for now, but I hope for better.

This post makes me sad, but in a good way. Blogging is like free therapy. Totally.

11.23.2007

Turkey Haiku

Dressing, turkey, wine
Dairy-free pumpkin pie and
Mashed sweet potatoes

Candied yams, Guinness
Brussel sprouts: bacon, pine nuts
Veggie crudite

We ate and drank much
Seven plus baby makes eight
Shared laughs and stories

Enjoyed each other
Cleaning up was not so bad
With help from the fam!
It's Haiku Friday.

11.22.2007

Thankful, Turkey Day Edition

This year, I am thankful for my life.

I am thankful certain things, like Little Man's birth, went better than they could have gone.

I am thankful my baby made it thirty-two weeks, one day, two hours and twelve minutes in the womb, and not any less.

I am thankful my baby got the care he needed for twenty eight days, and not any more (or less!).

I am SO thankful for our health insurance coverage.

I am thankful I was able to provide my own milk for my baby while he received his care.

I am thankful my baby and I were able to breastfeed after his special start. Not all babies are so lucky.

I am thankful my baby prefers to take his milk from me, and that he is able to do so.

I am thankful that my baby is now a healthy and happy Little Man.

I am thankful to be surrounded by family today.

11.21.2007

You've Got Mail!

Get Wordless.

11.20.2007

The Sweetest Sounds




Some babbling going on....

In other news, Little Man had his top two teeth break through on Sunday night/Monday morning. So it was a rough night for all of us, with much screaming involved.

For now, enjoy the sweet, sweet sounds of my Little Man. Makes me misty within the first few seconds. I am so over the moon about this kid of mine.

11.19.2007

This Past Dad-urday



While Mama was sleeping, the boys had some fun playing.

(Tonsillitis + upcoming holiday hosted at Casa de Cracker = light on the content & non-existent blogosphere presence. Sorry peeps! Back to the grind next week soon.)

11.18.2007

Profile of a CrackerDog





She really thinks she's human. Poor girl has been seriously demoted to fourth in the family. The beloved first daughter. Now the beloved...dog. Must be tough!

11.17.2007

Sashi Teresa



We don't know how she does it, but it's awesome. CrackerDog Sasha. As a Nun.

11.16.2007

Tonsillectomy Necessary

We just finished one
Amoxicillin was done
Now VDog is ill

Her throat hurts real bad
Which makes her feel very sad
Her meds are a pill

Better than liquid
Which Little Man had to take
Sickness is no fun

It's Haiku Friday.

I woke up this morning with a sore, swollen throat, went to the doctor, only to find that ~ guess what? Big surprise! I have tonsillitis!

11.15.2007

Blogging About Awards, 'Cause I Got Nothin'

I had a fabulous post planned for you today, but it's fabulousness is just not ready to unleash itself upon y'all.

Luckily, I received two awards this week! Woot for me!

First, the fab Anglophile Football Fanatic gave me this super cute award:

Is it supposed to mean amazing or amusing? I think amazing, since there's a "z" in it. Anyway, I am going to bestow this award upon:

Nap Warden

The Egel Nest

The Great Walls of Baltimore

Then, the incredible Nap Warden gave me this super sweet award:

I think these blogs rock the crib:

Secret Agent Mama

Anglophile Football Fanatic

Monkeys & Marbles

Poot & Cubby

The Binky Bitch

The Queen of Shake-Shake

I love getting awards, they make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I hope my recipients feel the same way!

Thanks NW and AFF!!

(I know some people don't necessarily "do" awards, but I wanted to show ya some love all the same. I won't be offended if you don't put them up or acknowledge them on your blog -- a comment here would be nice though!)

11.14.2007

My Two Monkeys



It's Wordless Wednesday.

11.13.2007

I Did It!

The Rookie Moms can ALWAYS make you feel good with their simple activities, like this one: Write a Did-Do List.

Here's mine for the day:

Changed 6 diapers, 2 of which were poopy.

Flushed the contents of 2 poopy diapers ('cause, you know, you're supposed to? Sometimes I am lazy, though, I admit it.)

Successfully administered 2 doses of heart medicine, 2 doses of antibiotics, and one dose of acid reflux medicine to Little Man.

Took my calcium supplement.

Managed to get through 3 meals with the Little Man.

Fed myself lunch! Woot!

Took the dog for a walk, and a nice one, at that.

Had a play date with JC and CC.

Took a shower *gasp* AND *GASP* WASHED MY HAIR. Oh happy day.

Met a Mom's Group friend and made it for Gymboree Open Play time.

Got Little Man to crawl through the big tunnel at Gymbo for the first time!! (He rolls army commando style.)

Picked up some dairy free cookies for myself. Woot!

Went to Trader Joe's and picked up some provisions.

Threw together some crackah-style couscous with peas and walnuts to go with our heated up TJ's Just Chicken for dinner.

Wrote this post.

What did YOU do today?

11.12.2007

Prematurity. It's No Joke.


This article made me cry big, globby tears yesterday. It is truly shocking and sad that in our rich, developed nation we have a major metropolitan area such as Memphis with an infant death rate of 15 per 1,000 births.

The majority of these deaths are due to prematurity and low birth weight.

This paragraph, at the beginning of the article, really hit home for me:

It takes a while for something much sadder to occur to you: In a room full of newborns, dozens of them, there is no crying. The sound of beeping heart monitors, the rustle and murmur of observing doctors, but no crying.


“They’re too small and too sick to cry,” explains a passing nurse.



When Little Man was in the NICU, he rarely ever cried. One nurse called him a "really mellow fellow."



Preemies just don't have the energy to cry. They need to save everything they've got to help build their bodies stronger, repair any damage that was caused by coming out of the oven under cooked, and gain weight.

We weren't convinced that our son was just super mellow. We had heard from friends with preemie twins to enjoy the pre-40 weeks stage, since all they do is sleep. Once the preemies hit full term (their due date), all bets are off.

That was the case with our Little Man. Once we hit the end of February, it was all sirens blazing. Hungry? Tired? Wet diaper? How about we SCREAM to get our needs met? Sounds good, right?



It was still shocking to see such an immediate change in our son. We knew it was possible that he would become "more alive" but seeing is believing. It was great to know that he was getting stronger, and bigger by the day.

When Little Man left the hospital at four weeks old (just past 36 weeks adjusted age), he weighed six pounds six ounces. The next day at the pediatrician, after his first full day of on-demand feeding, he had gained three ounces. He would continue to gain over an ounce a day throughout his fourth month, despite having acid reflux.

You can imagine that there was a lot of nursing and a lot of spitting up going on.

Articles like this one make me feel so lucky that we came out of our premature birth and NICU stay relatively unscathed. It is a reminder of how much still needs to be done to ensure every baby gets a fighting chance at life.

I wish that no other families would have to learn to ignore the constant beeps of heart and oxygen monitors. I wish that more babies could go home from the hospital with their parents. I wish more babies would be born healthy, and sometime after 37 weeks.

Until my wishes can become reality, please support the March of Dimes continue their fight against prematurity.

November is March of Dimes Prematurity Awareness Month.

Congratulations to Crackers #6, 7 & 8, our NICU roommates, for becoming one of the March of Dimes's Ambassador Families for 2008. #8 (the Big Guy) was born at 27 weeks gestation. He is truly an amazing baby, with truly amazing and wonderful parents.

11.11.2007

Hey Dudes! Look At Me!

I'm all better!


Well, mostly, in any case. Little Man still sounds like a little piggy when he breathes, but as you can see, he is feeling MUCH better. Which should be a relief to Little Man's #1 Internet fan (hi Candace!).

I think Candace was almost as concerned about LM as I was. It makes me feel good to know that out there in Bloggy land, people are thinking about us and sending LM good wishes and vibes (and prayers in some cases).

How did mommies get through first major illnesses in the old days? ;0)

It's been a little light on pictures around here lately, since posing for the camera isn't exactly a fun sick day activity, so I figured I should give the fans a little Little Man fix. Hope you enjoyed.

Photos taken by Warrior

11.10.2007

More Random Facts About VDog

My dear friend Anglophile Football Fanatic gave me and award and tagged me for this meme:

8 things I'm passionate about:
1. Little Man
2. The Warrior
3. CrackerDog Sasha
4. My friends
5. Food
6. Chocolate
7. Sleep (a hot commodity around here)
8. Recycling

8 things I want to do before I die:
1. Visit Spain
2. Visit England and Ireland
3. Go back to Amsterdam and visit the Van Gogh museum and the Henieken factory
4. Sky dive (though I probably never will, Warrior won't have it, and I can't blame him)
5. Bungee jump (see above)
6. Write a book, either memoir or fictional novel
7. Show Warrior the South West, including the Grand Canyon
8. Write a better screen play than the one I wrote in College

8 things I say often:
1. Totally
2. Ehbeh (Oh Boy drawled out)
3. What a jabroni!
4. I mean, seriously
5. Cracker!
6. Crackah ass crackah!!
7. E-BOLI (a version of #2)
8. Housejob!

8 Books I’ve read recently (or am still reading):
You mean there's time for reading when you're a SAHM???
1. Penelope Leach, Your Baby & Child
2. Ann Douglas, The Ultimate Sleep Solution
3. Dr. Sears, The Baby Book (hate the guilt, am generally anti-Sears, but I end up being a lot like the parents he wants people to be)
4. The American Academy of Pediatrics, Your Child 0-Age 5 (my Ped. follows the AAP guidelines pretty strictly, so it's nice to know where she's coming from)

That's all I got.

8 Songs I Could Listen to Over and Over (And do!)
1. Neil Diamond, Sweet Caroline
2. Dire Straights, Sultans of Swing
3. Rihanna, SOS
4. Dire Straights, Expresso Love
5. Britney Spears, I'm a Slave for You
6. Christina Aguilera, Beautiful
7. Beach Boys, Surfin' USA
8. 50 Cent, In Da Club

8 Things that Attract Me to My Best Friends:
1. They put up with me
2. They are intelligent
3. They tell me when I am being a jabroni
4. They drink margaritas with me
5. They think I'm like, totally fabulous
6. They are great with the Little Man
7. They have similar values
8. They tell me I am a great chef

That's about all I can handle right now. I will tell you about the fabulous award later. Little Man is doing MUCH better. His spirit is back almost 100%. He is still a bit more tired than usual, but he is definitely feeling better. Which means I am feeling better. Hopefully we'll have a full recovery soon, but the snot is still raging hard core. Poor cutie. He sounds like a snorting pig when he breathes.

11.09.2007

Haiku Sickness

My poor Little Man
What am I going to do?
How can I help you?

Nursing is so hard
Up all hours of the night
Hard to breathe and suck

Snot out the wazoo
Running, running, running. DRIP!
Down your nose, now mouth

Past your lips, to chin
I want to wipe it all up
You scream if I do

Feel so bad for you
We will have to wait it out
Cold meds are no good

Bad for you, your heart
So you will have to suffer
This season of snot.

It's Haiku Friday.

The meds seem to be kicking in, ear pulling is waning, fever appears to be gone, and he SLEPT!! The boy SLEPT!! For hours at a time!! Happy Day! I think it did him a world of good. And Mama, too. Things are looking up at Casa de Cracker. I think Little Man is on the mend. Whoopee!

11.08.2007

My First Thursday Thirteen


You know it's getting bad when I'm resorting to new theme posts when we're only a week into NaBloPoMo.

I present to you a random list of stuff for my first outing:

1) I was awarded another Egel Award by the man himself, Bradley Egel. Whoopee!

I award it to:

ImpostorMom

ramblings from an a.d.d. "type b"

Tattoos & Drool

(I know there were more, I will add them later.)

2) Mr. Egel has a thought provoking post up today about the Presidential Election. Many opinions weighing in in the comments section. Check it out.

3) The number of nights in a row I have been up and down, up and down with the Little Man. Sometimes he manages to sleep only thirty minutes at a time. Blame him for my late post today.

4) I have joined a Moms & Babies Meet-up group, because, really, I don't have enough to do already. HA! #7 also joined the group, so that's awesome, and one other mom from my Mom's Group is in it, too. The other ladies I've met are super cool so far, so it will be nice to have people to see and places to go once it starts raining.

5) I'm having "one of those days" today. I'm just so unmotivated to do anything, and everything I do manage to do ends up turning out wrong. Is Friday here yet?

6) Did you know that Mighty Goods now has an offshoot called Mighty Junior? Yeah, me neither.

7) Have you ever read The Pioneer Woman Cooks? It is an absolutely beautiful blog -- her pictures are so delicious. (This link is specifically posted for the GranCracker.) Dawn introduced me to this blog.

8) How about the Fabulous Mrs. Fussypants? We don't have much in common, what with her being Christian, Southern, and Republican, but we ARE both fabulous and hilarious. (HA!) She is WAY more fabulous and hilarious, but I've got room to grow. Have you seen this post of hers? Pure safety genius.

9) Did you know that Earth's Best Infant "Whole Grain Wheat Semolina Pastina" is really just a creative way for you to spend more money on whole wheat couscous? You can thank me later. (Little Man didn't even like it.)

10) If you can't get the package open yourself, you shouldn't eat the cookies. (Damn Newman's Own Champion Chip Cookies! Dairy-free, though! Woot!)

11) #3 just complained to me that he's "been crashing hella early...was in bed at 8:20pm last night...slept till 9am." Oh, WHAAAA. Cry me a frickin' river.

12) "The Bro" (Warrior's brother) is here in Cali for training in a new techy thing. He got in on Sunday and will stay until next Sunday. He is staying with us and we are doin' it up like old times (his job transferred him & his family away from us four years ago). Little Man is still trying to figure it out.

13) We apparently need to get a "pipe spy" to see if we have tree roots growing in our sewer line. I don't even want to get into how we found this out. Heh.

So, totally random, right? Did you enjoy this randomness? Should I do it ever again? Or just post a picture of Little Man if this is the other option? LOL.

Thank you to all of you who have left comments here and on the Buzz, IMmed, Twittered or emailed wondering how Little Man is doing. His fever is back (not sure actually if it ever went away) and he is miserable, poor cutie. There will be a Haiku about snot tomorrow. I know you're looking forward to that. Heh.

Of course I will keep you updated as to his condition.

11.07.2007

WW Flashback: 5.5 Months

It's Wordless Wednesday.

11.06.2007

From a Long Line of Bad Tubes

Eustachian tubes, that is.

We've got our first ear infection, people. At least the fever and crankiness are for a reason! Unfortunately, I'm almost certain that this will be the first in a long line of ear infections.

You see, both Warrior and I were complete sickies as kids, and still get sick probably more often than other adults. It's all thanks to the faulty tubes.

When I told Warrior that it was the beginning of an ear infection (consistent with a high fever and ear pulling, and his ears didn't look "normal"), he said, "I got ear infections ALL the time as a kid!" Huh. I knew about the asthma, bronchitis, and pneumonia, but NOT the ear infections.

As a kid, I would have pretty much any one of the three major tube infections at least once a year: ear, sinus and tonsil. I also had bronchitis about once a year.

I don't think there was a year of school where I DIDN'T miss at least a whole week and several sporadic days due to illness. It's no wonder I earned the nickname, "Sicky Vicky." (Btw, don't EVER call me Vicky, k? Thanks. (Another story for another day.))

Then there was the month in seventh grade that I was out with pneumonia. Guess what? So was Warrior! We have so much in common! Both of our Moms took us to warmer climates to dry us out, like we were old people needing environment therapy.

The next year, I was out for over six weeks with Mono. And I didn't even have a boyfriend! At least I could have gotten it some fun way! But Nooooo, I got it SHARING A CAN OF SODA. I am THAT lame exciting. HA!

Growing up by the beach, I was in the water a lot. Which meant I got a lot of ear infections. I got so paranoid about water in my ears causing an infection that I became, and am still to this day, obsessed with using Q-tips to dry out the insides of my ears (which you're totally not supposed to do, but, hey, works for me!). I also try to avoid getting my ears wet, which is hard when you're trying to SWIM and generally ENJOY THE WATER.

My latest ear infection was four years ago, well into my twenties. The doctor said, "you're not supposed to get these past age three!" Yeah, thanks. I'll let my Eustachian tubes know that. I'll put 'em on probation or something.

It was such a bad ear infection that it required TWO rounds of antibiotics -- including one of the Anthrax drug, Cipro -- and a ten day course of prednisone (steroids) to clear it up. And even after the 'roids, my tube didn't ever open completely back up.

So I am left with a left ear that doesn't hear as well as the right. Because of an ear infection. Fabulous. (Diminished hearing is only one reason why I am already eighty-three years old. Tendonitis and arthritis are two others. Also another story for another time.)

In sum, I've been waiting for this day to come. I have actually been quite (pleasantly) surprised at how healthy Little Man has been. Of course, I did keep him in near total seclusion for the first six months of his life (due to doctor's orders -- prematurity and all), so that probably helped immensely.

I will have to be prepared for many more of these ear and other infections, and doctor's visits like this morning, marked by screaming and crying and heartbreaking sadness. My poor little Boo.

Little Man still has a fever, but the doctor said he should feel MUCH better in a few days. Since he's sleeping A LOT, I got to blog early today! At least something good came of it. Heh.

11.05.2007

Truly Fascinating Subject Matter

My 100th post! I guess I'm "supposed" to do the great "100 things about me" post...let's see how far I can get. I'm also guessing that these "things" are supposed to be interesting...we'll see about that. HA!

1. I started dating the Warrior when I was a wee eighteen years old.
2. I got engaged to the Warrior at twenty-two years old, the fall after I graduated from University.
3. I got married to the Warrior more than six years after we started dating. I was twenty-four.
4. I met the Warrior through my friend, and his roommate, LouDog.
5. I am six, nearly seven, years younger than the Warrior.
6. I got butterflies when I met the Warrior. I thought he was cute, in a nerdy, glasses-wearing kind of way.
7. I had to convince Warrior to date me, because I was "too young" for him.
8. I said, "I love you" first. It just came out. He later told me that he could have said it after two weeks (TWO WEEKS, people!! I'm that damn good.) and it would have been true.
9. I'm still a bit peeved that he kept me waiting if he meant it earlier.

Speaking of peeves (back to Warrior later, I'm sure), I hate:
10. The expression, "pet peeves."
11. The word, "panties." They should ALL be underwear. It's like, "ooooh, PAN-ties." I think it's a sexist term, and it just makes me want to ralph.
12. When businesses don't have a website. I need to do research, people!
13. The expression, "teacher's pet." Hated it since grade school.
14. Internet Explorer (most of the time)(firefox RULZ).
15. Vista (blows my bloomin' arse).
16. Doing the dishes.
17. Folding laundry.
18. When my baby has a fever (right now it's 102.7 F). :(
19. How short the days are now (darn time change!).
20. Being late. Sadly, it is an all too common occurrence now that I am a mom.
21. Writing Thank You notes. I still have about 10 million to write for gifts from Little Man's birth. Ten months ago. Um, yeah. I have a serious problem. Sorry to all of my dear friends and family who have not received a note yet. Your gifts are truly appreciated. Truly.
22. The anxiety I feel when I think about un-written Thank You notes. (So why don't I just write them already??)

If you couldn't tell, I am:
23. A MAJOR procrastinator. If it can be done tomorrow, why not do it tomorrow?
24. Generally fairly messy. But clean. If that makes sense.
25. NOT a perfectionist. I got over that a looong time ago. I strive for a B+. And when that fails, a C will do.
26. Truthful to a fault at times.
27. A Sagittarius (see #26).

I am also:
28. Born in the year of the Goat (Sheep?? Something like that).
29. The second of four kids.
30. One of three sisters.
31. A voter.
32. Registered to "no party" since I can't fully commit myself to what the major parties believe in.
33. Liberal (it is Cali after all).
34. The daughter of two Libertarians. Until my Mom went Democrat in my teens (blame Bill).
35. Fatherless. He died of lymphoma when I was 19.

Some of my favorite foods are:
36. No-meat burritos. Repeat after me: beans (pinto), rice, cheese, sour cream, guacamole (a little hot sauce is good, too).
37. Nachos (like, the real deal, no Taco Bell stuff).
38. Carnitas burritos (a recent conversion; get this with black beans & lots of hot sauce).
39. Salt & Vinegar Potato chips.
40. Regular Potato Chips (another recent conversion, due to my elimination diet. It was like, the only "bad" food I could have).
41. Chocolate Mousse (a bonding point with Warrior -- our shared favorite dessert!).
42. Cereal (anything with granola clusters is always good).
43. Fried chicken tenders with...
44. French fries. Regular, curly, you name it, I like it.
45. Onion Rings.
46. Guacamole.
47. Avocado Rolls.
48. Chicken Terriyaki.
49. Pad Thai.
50. Any kind of curry dish -- red, green, yellow, don't matter.
51. Tom Ka Gai and Tom Ka Artichoke soups.
52. Broccoli.
53. Mangoes.
54. Papayas.
55. Cottage Cheese.
56. CHEESE! Roquefort, Brie, Cheddar, Jack, Manchego...mmmm. Damn elimination diet!
57. Chicken Satay w/ peanut sauce, mmm....
58. Peanut Butter (on toast, toasted bagels, sandwiches all w/ creamed honey, mmmm).
59. Chocolate.
60. Ice Cream.

I think I should stop the food category because:
61. I am a gourmand/foodie. I could go on and on about food.
62. Beautiful salads anyone? (a fruit, a nut and a cheese w/ balsamic vinaigrette, mmmm)(sorry I couldn't help myself).

Beverages I <3:>

63. Wine.
64. Margaritas.
65. Malibu & (usually diet) Coke.
66. MILK! Oh how I miss my milk. *sigh*
67. Milkshakes (malted or otherwise, CHOCOLATE 99% of the time).
68. WATER! Love it. Seriously.

69. My whole life (as long as I can remember), I've wanted to be a mom.
70. I was disappointed I didn't have a "regular" pregnancy (i.e., it ended too soon).

71. I have a hard time getting worked up for "causes," even when I have been directly affected by them -- lymphoma, prematurity, etc.
72. I can be extremely apathetic.

73. I have been called "crazy. But the good kind of crazy." (Thanks, k.) I took this as a compliment.
74. I have also been told by my mom and other friends that they've been "scared" of me.
75. Because you really don't want to piss me off.
76. I don't get pissed off often.
77. Annoyed, yes.
78. I forget easily annoyances by loved ones.
79. But I have an extremely good memory, which is a blessing and a curse.
80. Mom brain has stifled this memory excellence on occasion. I don't like my record being messed with.

81. I am usually the driver. It was 90% of the time before I got pregnant and then became a mom. See: Mom brain.
82. I am very good with directions and map reading. My sense of direction is quite remarkable.
83. We joke that I have a GPS in my brain. When I go someplace new, I am "uploading new maps" to my metal GPS.
84. Yes, I am dorky.

85. I don't "get" Burning Man and will probably never go.
86. I can be a bit uptight/prudish about certain things.

87. Warrior thought I was a "Santa Cruz hippie" when he first met me because I dressed up as one that first Halloween that we knew each other (before we were dating). Cracker.
88. I think being a "Cracker" can be a good thing, and if I'm calling you one, take it as a loving compliment.

89. I have never been to a screening of "The Rocky Horror Picture Show." I have no desire to go at this point in my life, either (See: #85 and #86).
90. Warrior says that I am the funniest woman he knows.
91. The Rice Cracker (Mojo) also thinks I have fabulous (comedic) timing. You have to know me in real life for the full effect. (I think? Maybe it comes through in my writing....)

92. My eyes change color. They are mostly blue on the outer rim and gold on the inside. When my pupils get big, they look green. They can also look gray or aqua.
93. My hair changes color. Not usually naturally. Heh.
94. I am five foot four and three quarters. But I'll say I'm five-five and call it even.
95. My driver license lies.
96. I was extremely depressed for many years of my life. I am happy now. And I work hard to stay that way. Motherhood and hormones makes this hard.
97. I like to "help" people to a fault. I will give you advice on something you are trying to buy, whether you are a friend, or a stranger in a store. This annoys Warrior to no end. He thinks I should butt out. This also extends to "helping" in personal and familial relationships. You can't help those that don't want to be helped. I've learned to curb that for the most part.
98. When I want to do or buy something, I research the heck out of it. I spent an INSANE amount of time researching strollers and cribs and the like.

99. I am slightly addicted to the Internet. But I'm getting better.
100. It took me over five hours to complete this (what with feeding the baby, getting him to bed, dealing with a fever -- now up to 103.6! JOY!, etc.). I can't believe I have finished!

If ANY of you made it through this, PLEASE let me know. I will be eternally grateful. I will also let you know how LM is doing tomorrow. We see the doc in the morning. My poor little boo!

(I guess this post could also be called: Profile of a Cracker: #2.)

11.04.2007

Oh Yeah, A Few Other Things...

Dear Little Man,

I forgot to tell you about a few key pieces of your development. YOUR MOVEMENT!!!

You are now army crawling with gusto, and in the last few days, you have begun to get both knees up and rest on all fours. Once in this position, if you can keep at it, you begin to slowly rock back and forth on your knees.

I've heard this is a key step for your crawling development. While I am excited to see you complete this milestone, it presents an even bigger challenge for me to keep watch over you.

We have set up and entire playroom for you in our Living Room, even though we said we would never be *THOSE* parents. Oh well. It just makes much more sense to give you a safe play space which is entirely dedicated to you rather than clean up another space over and over again.

You will learn quickly that both Daddy and I are HORRIBLE at keeping things tidy. Really, giving you the living room is a compromise that allows us to keep the family room for "adult" activities. You will also learn quickly that we are not very mature (see: Halo 3, pink hair, etc.). But DO NOT confuse this with us wanting to be YOUR FRIEND. Oh no, Little Cracker. We want to be YOUR PARENTS. NOT your FRIENDS.

We DO want you to love us immensely, but we want you to realize that while you live under OUR roof, you live under OUR rules. After you move out and become you own man, making your own decisions, we can be friends. Deal?

I love you with all my heart, my first born son (yes, this does mean we want to make you a sibling).

Until I think of something else,
love always,
Mama

11.03.2007

Ten Months In

Dear Little Man,

Just two days ago you turned ten months old. I can't believe how quickly you have grown, and how quickly our time together as Mama and (infant) baby has gone by. It seems like just yesterday that you looked like this:

Little Man, almost four weeks, still in the NICU
(Both pics)
Now, you look like this:

In the last few weeks, you have blossomed into a little boy right before my eyes! You have had an explosion of progress in your finger food eating and language abilities.

Last month, I was afraid to give you Cheerios. Now you eat black beans and kernels of corn whole. You eat chopped up chicken burger and tofu. Even well steamed carrots are not off limits. Your pincer grasp is becoming more refined by the day. (I know last month I said that you HATED corn and tofu, but apparently I was just giving you the wrong kind -- pureed corn and silken tofu? Blech. Whole corn and baked Terriyaki tofu? A-okay!)

In the beginning of the month, you would put one piece of food at a time in your mouth. Now you are practicing the chipmunk look and storing food in your cheeks to chew later. This is mostly because your motor skills have improved enough for you to get copious amounts of food to your mouth at once rather than scant amounts.

In just the last week, your language capabilities have begun to catch up to the BigGuy's. I think you got jealous of him saying, "Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!" over and over again. You had to do something to keep up. So now you are saying, "Da da da da, DA!" It's the most wonderful thing for your father to hear. I love it too. I know you'll get Mama soon.

In the morning, instead of just crying out for us to come get you, you practice your babbling and shrieks of delight for a solid ten minutes -- or more! -- if we let you.

Another funny thing you have been doing is at meal time. While you are in your highchair, you will start to lean back and lift your chin to the sky, with an exaggerated smile. You seem to be doing this purely for our benefit. It's almost as if you want to prove what a silly little monkey you are to us. You get this squinty eyed grin going, coupled with a look of self-satisfaction that is absolutely priceless. We can't help but laugh at you.

You are also learning what it means to drop things from your highchair. You have two reasons to drop things right now: 1) for the effect of the drop -- hearing the thud and watching mommy (hopefully) pick up and return what you dropped, and 2) to feed Sasha.

You seem genuinely pleased when you feed Sasha. Sasha now loves chopped up tofu and whole kernels of corn, too. The black beans? Not so much. Unfortunately, I have to clean those up.

We've also been on project fatten up around here. I am feeding you an egg yolk custard once a day, and also stir coconut milk into your oatmeal in the morning. Your egg yolk custards consist of one egg yolk and two tablespoons of either coconut milk or chicken stock, cooked over low heat until, well, custardy. (Ok, sometimes I cheat and do it in the microwave, but it's not nearly as smooth that way. The upside, though, is that it only takes a minute!) (You are enjoying the chicken stock ones best most recently.)

You are DEFINITELY getting heavier. The strange thing is that only your stomach and cheeks are getting bigger. You have quite the physique now. Daddy and I joke that you are "just the perfect specimen of manhood." And then we laugh at you. Sorry, buddy. But you are INCREDIBLY cute. And SOOOO skinny in your arms and especially your legs. (See picture #4 above.)

Last month, we were ready (Daddy for the most part) to say that you were sitting up. Now you can sit for up to ten minutes at a time! You have really developed your ability to sit and appreciate things, or patience, or whatever you want to call it. You seem to be able to sit and survey the situation, rather than just dive right into it, in an effort to plan out your next best move.

Previously, you would just go for it. Screw what the next best move was -- you wanted THAT toy RIGHT THERE and you wanted it NOW! Now you think, "mmm, MAYBE that toy, but MAYBE this toy. Let me see. Oh look! There's the tractor! Let's get that! No, wait! SASHA!! Yes, let's get Sasha! That'll be fun!"

Speaking of the CrackerDog, you and her have gotten even closer in the last month. She loves seeing you and wants to give you kisses. You love seeing her -- you get a HUGE smile on your face and kick your legs -- and want to explore her.

Unfortunately, your trust in Sasha has extended to ALL dogs, and while I love that you're not AFRAID of dogs, I wish you would be more cautious. Most dogs don't respond to tail, ear and muzzle pulling by just laying there and taking it. This is definitely a lesson we will have to work on in the future, because you think you can put your hands in any dog's face, which is just not the case.

You like to put your hands all up in Mom and Dad's faces, too. You don't know the meaning of "gentle" yet, so it pretty much means we get gouged. Luckily for me, you've been biting WAY less, and I am SO thankful. You haven't yet gouged any of your friends, mostly because of attentive mommies and daddies. You are a quick one, my love!

You still love your nursing and are only mildly interested in sippy/drinking cups. I'm beginning to worry that breast milk will be your only fluids for the foreseeable future. I can only hope you'll take to the cup eventually soon.

As for those teeth I thought would be coming in, well, they haven't. But they seem MUCH closer to the surface. You have four bulges, two on the bottom on either side of the ones you already have, and the two top front teeth. Looks like you got Momma's slow teeth, for sure. I'm hoping, for both of us, that they come in quickly and as painlessly as possible.

You have also been super funny with your tongue lately. I'm not sure what you think you can do with it, but it seems to hold special powers for you. You are exploring all sides of your mouth and gums with your tongue. You stick your tongue out at us and laugh when we reciprocate.

You are just one funny little dude, my love. You continually amaze me with your progress and love for your family. I am really enjoying this stage you are at -- not quite a baby, definitely not a toddler -- completely adorable.

Best wishes to my long and lanky dude.

All my love,
Mama

11.02.2007

So Totally Fabulous!

The Parent Bloggers Network and Beauty Confidential want to know about some of my biggest beauty blunders.

So I present for you, Christmas in the Year 2000:

Iridescent highlighting shadow and "coordinating" gold shadow (click on the pic for the (almost) full effect). I promise you this looked MUCH more scary in person. Also, not sure what I was thinking with the uber-blonde hairdo and super-straight brows.

February, the Year 2006:
When I "tried" to put streaks of "Pulsating Pink" in my own hair. Notice how the left side (your right) is much blonder than the right? Yeah, I am a MASTER styliste. TOTALLY.
Hair color "not found in nature" CONSISTENTLY makes the Don't list, year after year. Yet I am still tempted to do something radical, like Plum or pink (again).

At least I've got the lipstick right in each pic!

What were some of YOUR biggest beauty blunders?

Poetry In Motion

Husband is obsessed
Halo 3 is addictive
Please make it stop now

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Drool is everywhere
Four more teeth are coming through
Erupt quickly please!

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Day two of challenge
NaBloPoMo kicks my butt
Hopefully in gear

Bloggy friends miss me
I miss them too. Fewer hits
I've had. That's okay.

It's reciprocal
Hopefully they'll come back soon
I'm back on the horse.

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It's Haiku Friday.

11.01.2007

Ring the Alarm

I was at my Mom's Group this morning when the Warrior called. Our burglar alarm was going off -- the hallway motion sensor had been tripped.

So I called JC to have a look since I was about fifteen minutes away (and she lives right across the street). She didn't notice anything weird.

I had put Sasha in our bedroom, with the door closed, when Little Man and I left the house. The motion sensor is outside of the bedroom. I had also left the door to the deck open, since it is a nice day, it is on the second floor (third if you count the garage), and there are no alarm sensors on the sliding doors.

The majority of burglaries in our neighborhood happen during the day. So I felt that it was a real possibility that someone had broken in.

I was imagining someone climbing up to the deck and getting in, only to be foiled once they left our bedroom and tripped the alarm. I worried about Sasha's safety. I worried about dealing with a house that had been broken into.

But at the same time, I thought, it's just stuff.

When I got home, I called the neighbor who works out of his home to come inspect. He brought a large sledgehammer and cleared the premises for me.

Everything was as it should be. But for some reason, I feel scared.

Feeding Little Man his lunch, I felt the emptiness of our home around me. It's just him and me here. Sasha is no help -- she would likely lick an intruder to death before she even barked. She's smart like that. Heh.

It's instances like this that make me realize that I'm the parent. I don't have my Mom or Dad to rely on when something scary happens. It's all on me. I need to react a certain way, maybe not so much now, but when Little Man is older, so that he feels secure and like I'm the parent.

What makes YOU the parent? Are there times that the parent in you has taken over automatically? Or have you had to turn the parent on to respond/act accordingly?

 

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